Has it been almost two months already?

Ok, so I said I was going to write in this blog everyday. So much for good intentions. How about I change that to "whenever I can get to it".

I am up at 3:11 am this morning because I couldn't sleep any longer. Woke up with all kind of things on my mind and had to finally get up and write them down. I am beginning a new diet as of last Monday. I call it a new diet but it is really just a combination of numerous ideas and information. I am determined to drop some weight. 40 pounds to be exact. I would love to drop 50 but I am realistic. Life changes us and it is not healthy to think we can go back to looking like we did in high school(although I have seen some classmates that look better than they did in high school). I have made some eating changes and I am moving more. Have you ever tried to eat the reccommended amount of fruits and vegies in a day? Holy cow, that fills me up right there!

The motivation is for health reasons and lets face it, I am tired of "big" clothes. I want to fit into the cute stuff. Have you ever noticed that all the cute stuff in Goodwill (which I shop frequently - cheaper and helps me to "go green")tends to be in the smaller sizes? Anyway, it is time to make a change and no one can do it but me. Just like the cigarette commercials....Dear Me.

I will try to be around more often. Maybe even take the big step and show pictures!

Don't let me forget to talk to you about "happy pills" and winter coming on. :-)

Still Here

Yesterday, my birthday, was a great day both weather wise and birthday wise. I did get a chance to go riding. Larry and I went out for a ride across the river. It was shorter than I would have like but his tender butt was getting sore. The sky was sooooo blue. I love fall weather. I hate the thought of winter coming but I love fall. The air is so crisp and clean.

The horses were kind of rowdy yesterday morning. I was reading earlier in the day in the house and heard thunder all of the sudden and realized the horses were coming in for a drink out of the "pool" in our back yard. The baby came zooming in, around the lower field, up to the pool and gulzed away. I love watching my horses out to pasture. I keep a close eye on them and call them in at night but I love the fact they can be horses out in the pasture. Of course they are getting fat (or in Marquee's case, fatter) but winter is coming and they can eat until the snow flies.

Like I said, I was reading earlier in the day and finished a book that I really enjoyed. It was called Bliss, Remembered. Can't remember the author right now but I will get it for you later. I was very good. About a woman who was in her last year of life, cancer, and she was telling her son the story about her olympic swimming days back in the late 1930's before the war. It had an awsome turn of events to it in the end and I did not see it coming.

The draft horse show is here this weekend. I am heading out at lunch to wonder through the mighty giants and drool over the Fresains from Canada.

Today is the day!

So, today I turn 49 and start the year going on 50! It is a beautiful sunny day in North Idaho and I have taken the day off to go riding, read and just hang out. I am not really a fan of birthdays. Never have liked a lot of fuss. I only remember one birthday as a kid where I had a "party". I was not anti-social, just not into all the hoopla. So another birthday has come and again, no hoopla. Family asks me "what do you want to do for your birthday?" and look at me funny when I say "nothing". I mean really, it is just another day to enjoy.

For the next year, I decided to document the way to 50. Kind of a Julia/Julie thing. I hope to keep up on the entries and if for some reason people stumble on this blog, I hope they will enjoy it and perhaps see themselves in it. 50 is a mile stone. In this day and age, if you are not one of the really lucky ones, you are probably over 1/2 way through your life and your mortality comes into view. Have I done all I want to or better, what do I still need to do? But really, look how much you have done with the first 49! Just imagine what you can do with the next 49! As the saying goes - "The Skies the Limit"! I have my health - thank you God, I have my family, I have peace and things may be bleak financially (which is just a state of mind) but life is good.

Now for the next year, I will record my fears, frustrations, joys and whatever pops into my mind. It's a release, a journal, an expression of my days ahead. Lets hope it will help me as I go through my 49 going on 50 year. Cheers!